Friday, May 2, 2014
Reality Check
33.33% of the year gone, that's fast!
Let's do a reality check, of the few new year resolutions I have made, how many I've achieved? None.
Brush up Adrian, brush up! Please be good 2014!
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Making The Right Choice?
Sometimes making the right choice is never easy. I just did and I it tears me up inside to see you! If I could take it all away I would.
Well, let's just hope your next one won't be a fucked up jerk like me. Perhaps given more choices I would not do so. I do not want to waste your time for something might or might not happen.
Time is the most valuable thing one could give. Thank you so much for the time we spent together. It was memorable and I will cherish it! What is lost would live on in our memories, it might be imperfect but I will treasure it as it would be lost forever without us.
I really appreciate the love you've shown me. I never thought that it could be this imperfectly perfect! Then, life takes over and give me some seriously fucked up situation!
The unconditional love of the family is the best affection one could ever have, without family, I won't be here today. You never lose me, I lost you.
Take care.
p/s: I doubt she would read it, as I'm the jerk who broke her heart.
Well, let's just hope your next one won't be a fucked up jerk like me. Perhaps given more choices I would not do so. I do not want to waste your time for something might or might not happen.
Time is the most valuable thing one could give. Thank you so much for the time we spent together. It was memorable and I will cherish it! What is lost would live on in our memories, it might be imperfect but I will treasure it as it would be lost forever without us.
I really appreciate the love you've shown me. I never thought that it could be this imperfectly perfect! Then, life takes over and give me some seriously fucked up situation!
The unconditional love of the family is the best affection one could ever have, without family, I won't be here today. You never lose me, I lost you.
Take care.
p/s: I doubt she would read it, as I'm the jerk who broke her heart.
Monday, March 3, 2014
Thoughts Process
I find it hard to arrange my thoughts, maybe I have too much thoughts in process or I am quite fucked up in the head.
Despise what I have become without even realizing it, despicable. That's love all right, but just two different love. The situation is you can have neither, which would you go for? Adrian?
WHAT THE HELL DO I WANT?
Gave myself a goal too high to achieve? Dream too far? Why can't it be simpler, I want A, I work for A, I get A, then I want B, I work for B and I get B too. It's like pursuing two ends of the rope, you pull one side, the other side changes, you pull both sides, nothing changes. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN
processing.......
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Damn, after so many hours, still nil.
Really hope that there's a guidebook to everything in life. Fucked up my life badly recently. Really need to gather myself and arrange back my thoughts.
Kinda like disappointed with myself. Career, Relationship, Family, Friends... Even my money doesn't work for me.
processing.......
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Sigh. I shall continue this tomorrow.
Despise what I have become without even realizing it, despicable. That's love all right, but just two different love. The situation is you can have neither, which would you go for? Adrian?
WHAT THE HELL DO I WANT?
Gave myself a goal too high to achieve? Dream too far? Why can't it be simpler, I want A, I work for A, I get A, then I want B, I work for B and I get B too. It's like pursuing two ends of the rope, you pull one side, the other side changes, you pull both sides, nothing changes. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
Damn, after so many hours, still nil.
Really hope that there's a guidebook to everything in life. Fucked up my life badly recently. Really need to gather myself and arrange back my thoughts.
Kinda like disappointed with myself. Career, Relationship, Family, Friends... Even my money doesn't work for me.
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
processing.......
Sigh. I shall continue this tomorrow.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Work Load n Shit
Sometimes I wish I am not as capable or not as responsible, the amount of workload daily is never ending.
When you are good, people expect you to be better and give you more work. When you hand in your work earlier than expected, next time they will ask you to do it in an even ridiculously short time.
Mind you, I'm just a junior exec attached with the company for less than 2 years and everyone expect me to fly. I might be efficient but when I'm overload, my efficiency decreases!
Wish I could just employ a I don't give a fuck attitude and do within my limits and not overloading myself with too much work.
Let's see how is my increment this year. I start my work at 7.30am(wakes at 6am to avoid jams) and leave the site after 8pm most of the time. I got no overtime nor extra allowances. If the increment is fucked up, I really don't think I should have worked so hard anymore!
Using my life to change money but in the end I don't get money. Anyway, got into an accident recently and was quite fucked up by that incident, now life is up-fucking-side down, need a new car, means loan, means commitment monthly.
There goes my plan to get my own business early. Setback a few years I guess. Damn!
Anyway, my new car is going to be Honda City 2014 I hope, Honda City! It's damn sexy! But I hope I don't have to wait for 3 months for the car. Else the old technology Toyota Vois! Mum, noooooo T_T my first new car!!!
URGHHHHHHHHHHHH It's hard to be poor hence less choices, else I would have just take a Nissan GTR or a fucking sexy red Ferrari!
Plus point tho, I got into a relationship recently and she's damn mesmerizing and annoying at times, drives me crazy, that crazy bitch but I enjoyed being with her, talking to her is like stabbing myself sometimes but well, let's just see how the future unfolds, gonna be exciting.
When you are good, people expect you to be better and give you more work. When you hand in your work earlier than expected, next time they will ask you to do it in an even ridiculously short time.
Mind you, I'm just a junior exec attached with the company for less than 2 years and everyone expect me to fly. I might be efficient but when I'm overload, my efficiency decreases!
Wish I could just employ a I don't give a fuck attitude and do within my limits and not overloading myself with too much work.
Let's see how is my increment this year. I start my work at 7.30am(wakes at 6am to avoid jams) and leave the site after 8pm most of the time. I got no overtime nor extra allowances. If the increment is fucked up, I really don't think I should have worked so hard anymore!
Using my life to change money but in the end I don't get money. Anyway, got into an accident recently and was quite fucked up by that incident, now life is up-fucking-side down, need a new car, means loan, means commitment monthly.
There goes my plan to get my own business early. Setback a few years I guess. Damn!
Anyway, my new car is going to be Honda City 2014 I hope, Honda City! It's damn sexy! But I hope I don't have to wait for 3 months for the car. Else the old technology Toyota Vois! Mum, noooooo T_T my first new car!!!
URGHHHHHHHHHHHH It's hard to be poor hence less choices, else I would have just take a Nissan GTR or a fucking sexy red Ferrari!
Plus point tho, I got into a relationship recently and she's damn mesmerizing and annoying at times, drives me crazy, that crazy bitch but I enjoyed being with her, talking to her is like stabbing myself sometimes but well, let's just see how the future unfolds, gonna be exciting.
Friday, January 24, 2014
Kindness
Being kind is a very good act, by showing someone kindness, it might just brighten up their day and give them hope.
In this cruel world, a little bit of kindness will not hurt anyone but I had encountered a situation the help I have given is being seen as a fake gesture and got scolded for it.
That got me thinking, sometimes minding your own business might be a good thing to do too. If one would really hear my thought process instead of being mad and judge me wrongly, it will not make me feel that bad too.
Well, that's all about it. Don't be too kind all the time to others, people might see things differently!
In this cruel world, a little bit of kindness will not hurt anyone but I had encountered a situation the help I have given is being seen as a fake gesture and got scolded for it.
That got me thinking, sometimes minding your own business might be a good thing to do too. If one would really hear my thought process instead of being mad and judge me wrongly, it will not make me feel that bad too.
Well, that's all about it. Don't be too kind all the time to others, people might see things differently!
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Some Update
Well, let's see, what happened after 3 years since 2011?
- I am now an engineer. +4 (maybe a +5 is more appropriate)
- but I graduate with only a 3.41 CGPA.-2
- but I got the best Final Year Project Award. +1
- I am single after a 2 years relationship and a great roller coaster ride after the breakup. -6
- Been to Sydney with family in 2013! +2
- Raided Hong Kong with buddies in 2014. +3
- Got into an accident where I am at fault. -3
- Got drunk numerous times where I can't recall any shit of that night +1 (c'mon it was fun!)
- Made MH carried me numerous times back home. -2 (bro, at least I feel bad)
- Made MH drunk on 8th of January 2014, just before his first time on a plane. +3 (I have evidence)
- etc, maybe based on how I feel now, a +2?
Summary for 3 years, a +3, considered good enough for me. Hoping for a good year ahead and all my hard work pays off in the long run!
Well, life is pretty much at a standstill now, will make some changes somewhere. As for life partner, well, let's just say that there is a potential but it seems like she's not into me, so, conclusion is try harder? I will come back to this issue after a while. I am addicted with iDarts where it is a dart game with a digital board to keep track of your points, great when you want to have fun in a small party of 3 to 4 person.
Let's see how long will I keep blogging till I go missing in action again.
Currently Reading: Mages of Bloodmyr #2 The Consuls of Vicariate
- I am now an engineer. +4 (maybe a +5 is more appropriate)
- but I graduate with only a 3.41 CGPA.-2
- but I got the best Final Year Project Award. +1
- I am single after a 2 years relationship and a great roller coaster ride after the breakup. -6
- Been to Sydney with family in 2013! +2
- Raided Hong Kong with buddies in 2014. +3
- Got into an accident where I am at fault. -3
- Got drunk numerous times where I can't recall any shit of that night +1 (c'mon it was fun!)
- Made MH carried me numerous times back home. -2 (bro, at least I feel bad)
- Made MH drunk on 8th of January 2014, just before his first time on a plane. +3 (I have evidence)
- etc, maybe based on how I feel now, a +2?
Summary for 3 years, a +3, considered good enough for me. Hoping for a good year ahead and all my hard work pays off in the long run!
Well, life is pretty much at a standstill now, will make some changes somewhere. As for life partner, well, let's just say that there is a potential but it seems like she's not into me, so, conclusion is try harder? I will come back to this issue after a while. I am addicted with iDarts where it is a dart game with a digital board to keep track of your points, great when you want to have fun in a small party of 3 to 4 person.
Let's see how long will I keep blogging till I go missing in action again.
Currently Reading: Mages of Bloodmyr #2 The Consuls of Vicariate
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