Thoughts Process

I find it hard to arrange my thoughts, maybe I have too much thoughts in process or I am quite fucked up in the head.

Despise what I have become without even realizing it, despicable. That's love all right, but just two different love. The situation is you can have neither, which would you go for? Adrian?

WHAT THE HELL DO I WANT?

Gave myself a goal too high to achieve? Dream too far? Why can't it be simpler, I want A, I work for A, I get A, then I want B, I work for B and I get B too. It's like pursuing two ends of the rope, you pull one side, the other side changes, you pull both sides, nothing changes. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN


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Damn, after so many hours, still nil.

Really hope that there's a guidebook to everything in life. Fucked up my life badly recently. Really need to gather myself and arrange back my thoughts.

Kinda like disappointed with myself. Career, Relationship, Family, Friends... Even my money doesn't work for me.

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Sigh. I shall continue this tomorrow.