Work Load n Shit

Sometimes I wish I am not as capable or not as responsible, the amount of workload daily is never ending.

When you are good, people expect you to be better and give you more work. When you hand in your work earlier than expected, next time they will ask you to do it in an even ridiculously short time.

Mind you, I'm just a junior exec attached with the company for less than 2 years and everyone expect me to fly. I might be efficient but when I'm overload, my efficiency decreases!

Wish I could just employ a  I don't give a fuck attitude and do within my limits and not overloading myself with too much work.

Let's see how is my increment this year. I start my work at 7.30am(wakes at 6am to avoid jams) and leave the site after 8pm most of the time. I got no overtime nor extra allowances. If the increment is fucked up, I really don't think I should have worked so hard anymore!

Using my life to change money but in the end I don't get money. Anyway, got into an accident recently and was quite fucked up by that incident, now life is up-fucking-side down, need a new car, means loan, means commitment monthly.

There goes my plan to get my own business early. Setback a few years I guess. Damn!

Anyway, my new car is going to be Honda City 2014 I hope, Honda City! It's damn sexy! But I hope I don't have to wait for 3 months for the car. Else the old technology Toyota Vois! Mum, noooooo T_T my first new car!!!

URGHHHHHHHHHHHH It's hard to be poor hence less choices, else I would have just take a Nissan GTR or a fucking sexy red Ferrari!

Plus point tho, I got into a relationship recently and she's damn mesmerizing and annoying at times, drives me crazy, that crazy bitch but I enjoyed being with her, talking to her is like stabbing myself sometimes but well, let's just see how the future unfolds, gonna be exciting.

Kindness

Being kind is a very good act, by showing someone kindness, it might just brighten up their day and give them hope.

In this cruel world, a little bit of kindness will not hurt anyone but I had encountered a situation the help I have given is being seen as a fake gesture and got scolded for it.

That got me thinking, sometimes minding your own business might be a good thing to do too. If one would really hear my thought process instead of being mad and judge me wrongly, it will not make me feel that bad too.

Well, that's all about it. Don't be too kind all the time to others, people might see things differently!

Some Update

Well, let's see, what happened after 3 years since 2011?

- I am now an engineer. +4 (maybe a +5 is more appropriate)
- but I graduate with only a 3.41 CGPA.-2
- but I got the best Final Year Project Award. +1
- I am single after a 2 years relationship and a great roller coaster ride after the breakup. -6
- Been to Sydney with family in 2013! +2
- Raided Hong Kong with buddies in 2014. +3
- Got into an accident where I am at fault. -3
- Got drunk numerous times where I can't recall any shit of that night +1 (c'mon it was fun!)
- Made MH carried me numerous times back home. -2 (bro, at least I feel bad)
- Made MH drunk on 8th of January 2014, just before his first time on a plane. +3 (I have evidence)
- etc, maybe based on how I feel now, a +2?

Summary for 3 years, a +3, considered good enough for me. Hoping for a good year ahead and all my hard work pays off in the long run!

Well, life is pretty much at a standstill now, will make some changes somewhere. As for life partner, well, let's just say that there is a potential but it seems like she's not into me, so, conclusion is try harder? I will come back to this issue after a while. I am addicted with iDarts where it is a dart game with a digital board to keep track of your points, great when you want to have fun in a small party of 3 to 4 person.

Let's see how long will I keep blogging till I go missing in action again.

Currently Reading: Mages of Bloodmyr #2 The Consuls of Vicariate

THE MAN IN THE GLASS

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day,
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn't your father or mother or wife
Who judgment upon you must pass;
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass.

Some people may think your a straight-shootin' chum
And call you a wonderful guy,
But the man in the glass says you're only a bum
If you can't look him straight in the eye.

He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest,
For he's with you clear up to the end.
And you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of life
And get pats on your back as you pass.
But your final reward will be heartaches and tears
If you've cheated the man in the glass.

Peter "Dale" Wimbrow Sr.

A very meaningful poem I found out at some notice board without the author's name. Very meaningful and shame on that fella who plagiarize without giving credit to Mr Wimbrow!

Thoughts

The shadow of the past came back to haunt me at the present, it's like a dejavu and it's so bad that you just can not sleep soundly anymore.

A problem that is not solved is like a thorn in my heart, it itches and you just feel like finding a solution, a key for the matching lock and sadly without it, you just wont be able to have peace in your heart.

Money Cant Buy

There are lots of things money can't buy, love for instance, and solution to a problem.

Tattoo

I wanna get an exclamation mark tattoo on my hand.