Making The Right Choice?

Sometimes making the right choice is never easy. I just did and I it tears me up inside to see you! If I could take it all away I would.

Well, let's just hope your next one won't be a fucked up jerk like me. Perhaps given more choices I would not do so. I do not want to waste your time for something might or might not happen.

Time is the most valuable thing one could give. Thank you so much for the time we spent together. It was memorable and I will cherish it! What is lost would live on in our memories, it might be imperfect but I will treasure it as it would be lost forever without us.

I really appreciate the love you've shown me. I never thought that it could be this imperfectly perfect! Then, life takes over and give me some seriously fucked up situation!

The unconditional love of the family is the best affection one could ever have, without family, I won't be here today. You never lose me, I lost you.

Take care.

p/s: I doubt she would read it, as I'm the jerk who broke her heart.

Life

Any guidebook?

Thoughts Process

I find it hard to arrange my thoughts, maybe I have too much thoughts in process or I am quite fucked up in the head.

Despise what I have become without even realizing it, despicable. That's love all right, but just two different love. The situation is you can have neither, which would you go for? Adrian?

WHAT THE HELL DO I WANT?

Gave myself a goal too high to achieve? Dream too far? Why can't it be simpler, I want A, I work for A, I get A, then I want B, I work for B and I get B too. It's like pursuing two ends of the rope, you pull one side, the other side changes, you pull both sides, nothing changes. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN


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Damn, after so many hours, still nil.

Really hope that there's a guidebook to everything in life. Fucked up my life badly recently. Really need to gather myself and arrange back my thoughts.

Kinda like disappointed with myself. Career, Relationship, Family, Friends... Even my money doesn't work for me.

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Sigh. I shall continue this tomorrow.