What makes me happy?

To be able to answer that, I need to know what is happiness?

I have no answer to that.

State of Chaos

The same old thing has been bugging me for quite a long time, I don't know why I just can't seem to get my head over it and move on.

I couldn't be so selfish to my future partner. I don't think I'll ever be whole again, waiting, longing and hoping for someone that is clearly not giving me a fuck.

Yet I still wish that I can have it. That is the worst thing that could ever happen. So dear future partner, I only wish that I am whole and complete. I cannot be so selfish going into a relationship without being me.

Unless you are my future partner. You are the worst and the best thing that could ever happen to me and my uninteresting life.

Live on in memories

The sands of time cannot be stopped whether you will it or not. Our time together a year ago was really a great experience to me. For without you, I won't be where I am today.

I do cherish the time we had together, the good and the bad ones. We were really an item. I really gave my everything for you without ever giving a thought about myself, you taught me how to give without hoping for a return.

I really thought we could go the distance, we could last, hoping we could grow together, me with my ego and you with your temperament. Alas, fate has a bad part to play on us, but I hope that we could be better even though we are apart.

The sad truth is our path might not cross anymore but I do wish that you will be better. I will never forget someone like you, thank you for being part of my life even for a while. You are something, don't ever give up on yourself and you will be more successful than you thought you could be.

Negativity is very bad and I know you tried very hard to do better, I'm sorry I can't guide you through but I do hope that you are still trying. Learn to love yourself and those around you more. Family and friends are there for you, don't be too calculative and you will realize that you will get more in return from whatever you gave out.

The times we had will definitely live on in my memories.

Sincerely,
Princess

p/s1 Cow Cow will be better than ever! Don't give up!

p/s2 I do remember you.

Don't do this

I am better than I am, I am in control and I won't give in!